Post by MATT on Jul 12, 2012 13:03:29 GMT -5
***NOTE: This character was originally created by Schwarzen*Adler, and 90% of the material plus all of the character concept is hers! (I'm just lucky enough to play him :3 )
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Class: "What ranking do you belong to? Are you human? Out with it child, and no lies. Either way, we’ll find out."
Name:
Nickname(s):
Birthday: (1 July, 3033)
Owner: n/a
House:
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION
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Height: 4'9.
Weight: 92 lbs.
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HISTORICAL FACTS
Birthplace: (Which sector was your character born in? Are they foreign?)
Parents: Who are your character’s parents? Are they alive ,dead, distant?
Siblings: Does Your character have any siblings?
.... Y-Yes.
I do.
Most people actually know him before they know me... I'm just the person they greet to be polite. A-and.... they always say his mine before mine. 'Al and Matt', ' Alphred and Matthew'. Ne-Never 'Matthew and Al'...
Th-They always ask where Al is and never how I am.... The conversation always revolves around him.
"Al did this; Al did that".
"Al got in trouble again."
"Al's looking for you."
.... I wish they'd look at me for once....
Sorry....
Education:
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History:
GOSSIP
Known Facts:
(post somethings that everyone knows is true about your character)
Rumors:
(what are some rumors going on about your character? Can be true or false)
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Secrets:
(What is something only your character knows?)
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PERSONALITY
Age:
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Likes: (at least 4)
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Dislikes:
Aspirations:
Fears:
Weaknesses:
Strengths:
For this portion, a special speaker was asked to answer this question to allow it to be as unbiased as possible.
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Habits:
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Overall Personality:
" How do you see yourself?"
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A young boy enters the room timidly and takes a seat on the soft, plushy couch sitting alone in the corner of the room. Throwing a wary glance at the interviewer, he flashes the latter a small smile. Based on his mannerisms, he seems a tad uncomfortable....
Taking note of that, the assessor begins to state his inquiries.
“ Why do you wish to be a hero?”
“How did you get here?”
“ What are you planning on doing?”
Struggling to follow, the boy squirms in his seat. Not a single coherent word comes out of his mouth except for a faint stammering. Nodding quickly, the interviewer moves on. Perhaps the questions hadn’t been clear enough. Scanning the boy from head to toe, it is confirmed that the child before them is the one in question. That blue eyed-blonde
haired description can’t belong to anyone else.
Pausing for a minute, the interviewer realizes something off. In the boy’s arms rests a... stuffed toy. Strange, from what was said the boy normally didn't carry around those type of things.
Hadn't he been know for carrying around a rabbit?
[Interview start]
Taking note of that, the assessor begins to state his inquiries.
“ Why do you wish to be a hero?”
“How did you get here?”
“ What are you planning on doing?”
Struggling to follow, the boy squirms in his seat. Not a single coherent word comes out of his mouth except for a faint stammering. Nodding quickly, the interviewer moves on. Perhaps the questions hadn’t been clear enough. Scanning the boy from head to toe, it is confirmed that the child before them is the one in question. That blue eyed-blonde
haired description can’t belong to anyone else.
Pausing for a minute, the interviewer realizes something off. In the boy’s arms rests a... stuffed toy. Strange, from what was said the boy normally didn't carry around those type of things.
Hadn't he been know for carrying around a rabbit?
[Interview start]
Matthew Florian Jones
DATA
Class: "What ranking do you belong to? Are you human? Out with it child, and no lies. Either way, we’ll find out."
[Taken aback by the sudden force of the question, the young child bites down on his lip. ]
Ummm…. [he stutters,] I-I’m human.
At least…I think I am. From what the Matron told us, metal men have parts of iron, copper and similar substances while hybrids have parts taken from animals. All kids brought here are normally checked before they can be admitted to makes sure that none can sneak past. If one does, it can put everyone in danger. And in that case, a lot of people can die as a result of it.
They’re a bit…No, really scared to allow those kinds of people in. Errr….from what we were told, they were bad, evil cruel and bloodthirsty creatures who would do everything to….to….
[Shivering slightly, the boy’s voice grew soft.]
I’d rather not talk about it. Let’s just say… nothing good can come out of crossing paths with one…. Nothing at all
There’ll be no being a hero if that happens.
Ummm…. [he stutters,] I-I’m human.
At least…I think I am. From what the Matron told us, metal men have parts of iron, copper and similar substances while hybrids have parts taken from animals. All kids brought here are normally checked before they can be admitted to makes sure that none can sneak past. If one does, it can put everyone in danger. And in that case, a lot of people can die as a result of it.
They’re a bit…No, really scared to allow those kinds of people in. Errr….from what we were told, they were bad, evil cruel and bloodthirsty creatures who would do everything to….to….
[Shivering slightly, the boy’s voice grew soft.]
I’d rather not talk about it. Let’s just say… nothing good can come out of crossing paths with one…. Nothing at all
There’ll be no being a hero if that happens.
Name:
I’m not Alphred, [the boy snaps suddenly,] Ok?! Sorry to disappoint!
[Regaining his composure, the child digs his clenched hands into his legs. Allowing his head to rest slightly above his stuffed toy, he bites back the pained look threatening to overtake his control.]
Sorry…
[he mumbles, a hint of uneasiness now heard in his voice]
Everyone always praises and looks for him, but I’m not him. I’m Matthew…his brother. Sorry.
It’s true though…I’m not him. But people still always want to see him and not me.
I guess it’s because he’s older and louder, but I don’t see how that changes anything. We’re only a year apart.
But, he always has to be the leader, the head, and the hero in the spotlight. Alphred the one who makes everyone happy! Alphred the one who fixes everyone's problems! And I-I…..I’m just his brother.
I-I don’t mind though.
[he sighs sadly]
I’m ok with being the sidekick…. Still I wish that someone would acknowledge me as well.
Matthew Florian Jones….
Is that so hard to remember?
[Regaining his composure, the child digs his clenched hands into his legs. Allowing his head to rest slightly above his stuffed toy, he bites back the pained look threatening to overtake his control.]
Sorry…
[he mumbles, a hint of uneasiness now heard in his voice]
Everyone always praises and looks for him, but I’m not him. I’m Matthew…his brother. Sorry.
It’s true though…I’m not him. But people still always want to see him and not me.
I guess it’s because he’s older and louder, but I don’t see how that changes anything. We’re only a year apart.
But, he always has to be the leader, the head, and the hero in the spotlight. Alphred the one who makes everyone happy! Alphred the one who fixes everyone's problems! And I-I…..I’m just his brother.
I-I don’t mind though.
[he sighs sadly]
I’m ok with being the sidekick…. Still I wish that someone would acknowledge me as well.
Matthew Florian Jones….
Is that so hard to remember?
Nickname(s):
[With a bemused look, the child's eyes widen. He seems rather awestruck by something. ]
A-After all of that, you still want to.... ask about me? Even if I'm not my brother?
Ok then.... This is weird, but I'll try my best....
A nickname....you say? H-How do you make one of those? Is there a special pattern or thing that you need to include to make it valid? I....I've heard that everyone has them but never tried creating one for myself. I-Is it hard?
And what makes yours different from another person with the same name? 'It's one of a kind?' Ah....s-so it's for identification?
That sounds.... interesting...!
W-what do you with it after?
Y-You can tell it to your friends? And make some for them? W-Will they call you that too....?
Oh.... B-but I don't want to force a name on them. What if they don't want to call me that? Or if they don't like the name I chose for them?Won't they be angry....?
Hmmm? They can make one for themselves as well? S...So we can exchange nicknames with one another? I guess.... that would be fair...
[A sparkle of excitement and gratitude fills his eyes as the boy struggles to begin. Matthew pauses for a few moments to brainstorm on what he wants to be called.
He seems to have forgotten about his earlier outburst. Or maybe, he never realized that he had one? Regardless, he smiles a few seconds after with an air of accomplishment. It appears that he came up with an answer.]
Umm....ok. I'm Matthew and you can call me....
Matthew.
[Wincing with dissatisfaction, the boy's eyes drop to the floor. Muttering something about failure, he bites down on his lip. His shoulders sag slightly as his grip tightens around his little bear. He doesn't seem very happy anymore.]
I-I'm sorry. I'm not really used to being acknowledged, let alone being noticed. So, it's hard for me to come up with a name that I'd like to be called. I've never been the impromptu kind of person...Normally, they just call me 'kid' or 'that kid's brother.' Or when they want to joke around with me, they call me ' The little detective' or ' Sherlock Jones'. Al thinks it's for fun but I know it's meant as an insult. They mean it in the same way as one would say 'smart aleck'. It's like how they call him 'Little hero.' He thinks they mean it but... [He winces.] Never mind. Let's just say he can never take their hints.
All in all, I've never really been called anything seriously or given the choice to choose what I want to be called. Not many people remember my name.
But you know.....
[He muses aloud.]
I appreciate that you wanted to give me a name and bothered with my opinion. It makes me feel really happy.
S-Sometimes.... I feel like that little nameless shadow that glides along the walls. It stays behind you 24/7 but never says a word.
It's just.... there....
You're like two halves of the same coin. But... There's always one thing that separates both of you from one another. One thing which the shadow can never have.... Right?
You're always facing towards the light. Whether talking with friends and moving ahead or making your own path on your own, there will always be a light there.... You can choose to follow it; you're free to reach out for it. But the little shadow?
It...can never do that.
It's not....free like you are.... Right?
No matter how much it wants to escape and be happy as well, it can never acquire any real 'independence' (as my brother always says). Its only purpose is.... to just walk alongside you until you finally realize that you've always been free, that you never had to actually look for it. And when you finally get there.... What next?
T-That's always the choice of the other, never the little shadow on the wall.
No matter how much it tries to speak, it's never heard. Because when you look at it, it's always forced to face the other way. A-And from that, all you see is a blob sembling someone else. But when it looks at you, you're facing the other way. And it can't do anything but follow along timidly behind.
It is and....always will.... be dependent on you to exist.
S-Sometimes the shadow feels bad and alone, but you never see its face so you never know. B-but when you feel down, everyone can see your face. And as you sit alone in a corner... your shadow longs to help. After all, no one should go through the same things it felt...that feeling of genuinely being unable to do anything for anyone....
The little shadow wants to make you feel like you have someone to comfort you. It want to embrace you and make you feel better!
But..... It doesn't know how to.
So in the end, it just sits there in its little corner and waits for you to feel better. Then, it follows along behind you just as it always does.
But if it could ever say something that was heard by everyone, it's message would probably be to stop saying that you're alone. Next time you feel hurt, remember your shadow is there..... It may not have a name or a voice but.... It still exists. And it's always there walking behind you, though you may not see it all the time. It never left or even thought about doing so.
S-So... Stop saying that it did....
It hurts.... you know?
....
O-oh...
I'm s-sorry....
I just rambled along there....Sorry.
But....you seem nice. And you listened to my story.
Thank you.....
I-If you want, you can call me Matt. That's what my brother calls me. But I'm not picky with nicknames. You can call me 'Matthew,''Mattie','Matt' or anything you can think of.
Just...
[He winces. ]
Don't call me Al.
I have my own name afterall.....
Sorry.
A-After all of that, you still want to.... ask about me? Even if I'm not my brother?
Ok then.... This is weird, but I'll try my best....
A nickname....you say? H-How do you make one of those? Is there a special pattern or thing that you need to include to make it valid? I....I've heard that everyone has them but never tried creating one for myself. I-Is it hard?
And what makes yours different from another person with the same name? 'It's one of a kind?' Ah....s-so it's for identification?
That sounds.... interesting...!
W-what do you with it after?
Y-You can tell it to your friends? And make some for them? W-Will they call you that too....?
Oh.... B-but I don't want to force a name on them. What if they don't want to call me that? Or if they don't like the name I chose for them?Won't they be angry....?
Hmmm? They can make one for themselves as well? S...So we can exchange nicknames with one another? I guess.... that would be fair...
[A sparkle of excitement and gratitude fills his eyes as the boy struggles to begin. Matthew pauses for a few moments to brainstorm on what he wants to be called.
He seems to have forgotten about his earlier outburst. Or maybe, he never realized that he had one? Regardless, he smiles a few seconds after with an air of accomplishment. It appears that he came up with an answer.]
Umm....ok. I'm Matthew and you can call me....
Matthew.
[Wincing with dissatisfaction, the boy's eyes drop to the floor. Muttering something about failure, he bites down on his lip. His shoulders sag slightly as his grip tightens around his little bear. He doesn't seem very happy anymore.]
I-I'm sorry. I'm not really used to being acknowledged, let alone being noticed. So, it's hard for me to come up with a name that I'd like to be called. I've never been the impromptu kind of person...Normally, they just call me 'kid' or 'that kid's brother.' Or when they want to joke around with me, they call me ' The little detective' or ' Sherlock Jones'. Al thinks it's for fun but I know it's meant as an insult. They mean it in the same way as one would say 'smart aleck'. It's like how they call him 'Little hero.' He thinks they mean it but... [He winces.] Never mind. Let's just say he can never take their hints.
All in all, I've never really been called anything seriously or given the choice to choose what I want to be called. Not many people remember my name.
But you know.....
[He muses aloud.]
I appreciate that you wanted to give me a name and bothered with my opinion. It makes me feel really happy.
S-Sometimes.... I feel like that little nameless shadow that glides along the walls. It stays behind you 24/7 but never says a word.
It's just.... there....
You're like two halves of the same coin. But... There's always one thing that separates both of you from one another. One thing which the shadow can never have.... Right?
You're always facing towards the light. Whether talking with friends and moving ahead or making your own path on your own, there will always be a light there.... You can choose to follow it; you're free to reach out for it. But the little shadow?
It...can never do that.
It's not....free like you are.... Right?
No matter how much it wants to escape and be happy as well, it can never acquire any real 'independence' (as my brother always says). Its only purpose is.... to just walk alongside you until you finally realize that you've always been free, that you never had to actually look for it. And when you finally get there.... What next?
T-That's always the choice of the other, never the little shadow on the wall.
No matter how much it tries to speak, it's never heard. Because when you look at it, it's always forced to face the other way. A-And from that, all you see is a blob sembling someone else. But when it looks at you, you're facing the other way. And it can't do anything but follow along timidly behind.
It is and....always will.... be dependent on you to exist.
S-Sometimes the shadow feels bad and alone, but you never see its face so you never know. B-but when you feel down, everyone can see your face. And as you sit alone in a corner... your shadow longs to help. After all, no one should go through the same things it felt...that feeling of genuinely being unable to do anything for anyone....
The little shadow wants to make you feel like you have someone to comfort you. It want to embrace you and make you feel better!
But..... It doesn't know how to.
So in the end, it just sits there in its little corner and waits for you to feel better. Then, it follows along behind you just as it always does.
But if it could ever say something that was heard by everyone, it's message would probably be to stop saying that you're alone. Next time you feel hurt, remember your shadow is there..... It may not have a name or a voice but.... It still exists. And it's always there walking behind you, though you may not see it all the time. It never left or even thought about doing so.
S-So... Stop saying that it did....
It hurts.... you know?
....
O-oh...
I'm s-sorry....
I just rambled along there....Sorry.
But....you seem nice. And you listened to my story.
Thank you.....
I-If you want, you can call me Matt. That's what my brother calls me. But I'm not picky with nicknames. You can call me 'Matthew,''Mattie','Matt' or anything you can think of.
Just...
[He winces. ]
Don't call me Al.
I have my own name afterall.....
Sorry.
Birthday: (1 July, 3033)
A-A birthday? Huh....
I've..... never actually had one.
Birthdays and celebrations are meant for those with families and homes..... It's meant to celebrate their existences and their purpose in the lives of others. In my case, there was never anyone to celebrate with. All the children either ignored me, teased me or didn't know I was there...and the nice ones left pretty fast. I-In the end, there wasn't much means to celebrate.
The orphanage isn't.... overflowing with money either.... And I don't think it'd be worth it to trade a month's worth of meals for a single slice of cake. It's....fine with me though. I got used to the habit a long time ago.
We all did.
It's just....my brother who was too stubborn to conform..... I'd rather just treat every day like it was a normal one, but he had to make a 'special' one for both of us. I-It.... was meant to be a day that we could feel like kings..... Though in reality we're....very far....from that.
His is on July 4; mine is on July 1.
He wanted them to be on the same month, I guess.....
I've..... never actually had one.
Birthdays and celebrations are meant for those with families and homes..... It's meant to celebrate their existences and their purpose in the lives of others. In my case, there was never anyone to celebrate with. All the children either ignored me, teased me or didn't know I was there...and the nice ones left pretty fast. I-In the end, there wasn't much means to celebrate.
The orphanage isn't.... overflowing with money either.... And I don't think it'd be worth it to trade a month's worth of meals for a single slice of cake. It's....fine with me though. I got used to the habit a long time ago.
We all did.
It's just....my brother who was too stubborn to conform..... I'd rather just treat every day like it was a normal one, but he had to make a 'special' one for both of us. I-It.... was meant to be a day that we could feel like kings..... Though in reality we're....very far....from that.
His is on July 4; mine is on July 1.
He wanted them to be on the same month, I guess.....
Owner: n/a
House:
Ok, here's what I know.
Goldsbloom is one of the three main houses....
They keep peace and justice for everyone.
And Alphred is obsessed with them.
He thinks what they're doing is noble and just....
But something isn't right.
How can someone have so much power and..... not have anyone complain? People say that they're dangerous, and that wouldn't be surprising. Their heir.... There's something strange about him. He's always on the news for something, but no one will let me read the paper. Matron just told me to keep him away from the Goldsbloom nobles. They said ' It's no place for kids '.
That just made Al all the more curious.
And saying no made him more intent.
After trying to get people to tell him stories about Goldsbloom, he's desperate to try and sneak a talk with the heir. He even wants to break into the palace and meet him! How stupid, right? He can get himself killed! And then he wants to walk out casually like nothing ever happened.
I have to keep a lookout for him, even if he won't listen. But I know it won't be of use.... It never is! Talking never works with him; he refuses to learn by anything but action.
I can only hope that he won't do anything too stupid.
Goldsbloom is one of the three main houses....
They keep peace and justice for everyone.
And Alphred is obsessed with them.
He thinks what they're doing is noble and just....
But something isn't right.
How can someone have so much power and..... not have anyone complain? People say that they're dangerous, and that wouldn't be surprising. Their heir.... There's something strange about him. He's always on the news for something, but no one will let me read the paper. Matron just told me to keep him away from the Goldsbloom nobles. They said ' It's no place for kids '.
That just made Al all the more curious.
And saying no made him more intent.
After trying to get people to tell him stories about Goldsbloom, he's desperate to try and sneak a talk with the heir. He even wants to break into the palace and meet him! How stupid, right? He can get himself killed! And then he wants to walk out casually like nothing ever happened.
I have to keep a lookout for him, even if he won't listen. But I know it won't be of use.... It never is! Talking never works with him; he refuses to learn by anything but action.
I can only hope that he won't do anything too stupid.
Whitestag's gardens are pretty and neat. People talk about how all the members are happy and nice. I don't know enough about it to make a judgement, but it sounds like a paradise! They hold balls, events and lots of things to make their people happy. But aside from that, there isn't much info about them. When I ask about it, people look around and change the topic.
Are they hiding anything?
Are they hiding anything?
Silverhollow......
They scare me.
No, they really scare me.
There's a lot of news about Goldsbloom; there's a decent amount of news about Whitestag; I know nothing about Silverhollow. Nobody wants to say anything about them, good or bad. One man who people claimed was insane tried and said that the head was planning something.
The next day, he was said to have died in an accident.
All I do know from experience is, there was a man that came from Silverhollow who wanted to adopt us. I didn't get to meet him, but Al did. Al said he seemed ok, a bit weird but fine. But as he left, I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. His smile.... It was the smile that the adults gave me when I asked a question. It was filled with smug confidence and amusement at a kid asking something. I also saw that smile on their faces when those people insult Al without him knowing or when he says he wants to be a hero. It's unnerving....
But there's something else.
Something I can't place....
People also keep mentioning the heirs to Silverhollow were two kids....
Whatever happened to them? And why doesn't anyone ever see them anymore? I have a really bad feeling about this....
I wish I could piece together the situation...
They scare me.
No, they really scare me.
There's a lot of news about Goldsbloom; there's a decent amount of news about Whitestag; I know nothing about Silverhollow. Nobody wants to say anything about them, good or bad. One man who people claimed was insane tried and said that the head was planning something.
The next day, he was said to have died in an accident.
All I do know from experience is, there was a man that came from Silverhollow who wanted to adopt us. I didn't get to meet him, but Al did. Al said he seemed ok, a bit weird but fine. But as he left, I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. His smile.... It was the smile that the adults gave me when I asked a question. It was filled with smug confidence and amusement at a kid asking something. I also saw that smile on their faces when those people insult Al without him knowing or when he says he wants to be a hero. It's unnerving....
But there's something else.
Something I can't place....
People also keep mentioning the heirs to Silverhollow were two kids....
Whatever happened to them? And why doesn't anyone ever see them anymore? I have a really bad feeling about this....
I wish I could piece together the situation...
-Taken from Matthew's Journal
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION
Eye Color:
[[Depending on the fanart ( Oh god xD ) his eye colour can range from blue to purple. But for the sake of this roleplay, I'll probably use Indigo ( the colour in between both purple and blue.]]
My eye...colour? Oh.... Ummm.... I never really noticed it very much. I-I guess it's a bit in between purple and blue, if that makes any sense. But from afar, most people think it's just plain blue.
....That's why I get mistaken for my brother a lot. B-But if you really look at it, his is light blue. Though it'd be...weird...if you were staring at his eyes long enough to find that out.
I....don't know why I know that.
....That's why I get mistaken for my brother a lot. B-But if you really look at it, his is light blue. Though it'd be...weird...if you were staring at his eyes long enough to find that out.
I....don't know why I know that.
Hair Color:
In contrast to his brother, Matthew has wavier hair that falls until his chin. His hair is also flatter than his sibling's with a noticeable care put into how it looks. While Alphred often looks like he just woke up and hopped out of bed, Matthew is more kempt and neater in appearance. He also lacks Alphred's iconic jutting hair.
Both of them are blonde, but Matthew may be leaning towards more of a fiery or orangeish shade. Alphred on the other hand is more of a dirty blonde.
When asked about it, Matthew laughed.
According to him, his brother wouldn't notice or be able to answer about his hairstyle and any differences in colour would not be given a single concern. But if he were to be bald on the other hand.....that would be a different story. Still that seems a tad too extreme.
It is seen that Matthew twiddles and fidgets with his hair more when he is distracted than his sibling. Of course, that is hardly a surprise. It wouldn't be very easy to do so if he had something like a bowl cut.
*Note: He looks more female than his brother does. A lot more.... To the point where one could think he was actually the boy's sister if they had never met either of them.
Both of them are blonde, but Matthew may be leaning towards more of a fiery or orangeish shade. Alphred on the other hand is more of a dirty blonde.
When asked about it, Matthew laughed.
According to him, his brother wouldn't notice or be able to answer about his hairstyle and any differences in colour would not be given a single concern. But if he were to be bald on the other hand.....that would be a different story. Still that seems a tad too extreme.
It is seen that Matthew twiddles and fidgets with his hair more when he is distracted than his sibling. Of course, that is hardly a surprise. It wouldn't be very easy to do so if he had something like a bowl cut.
*Note: He looks more female than his brother does. A lot more.... To the point where one could think he was actually the boy's sister if they had never met either of them.
Height: 4'9.
He's shorter than Alphred by about 2 cm or so.
Weight: 92 lbs.
He didn't shirk off the question when asked unlike Alphred on the other hand who "suddenly" had to go to the restroom and happened to miss the weighing. Anyone with eyes can see this is not a coincidence.
*it should be noted that he got lost while looking for said restroom.
*it should be noted that he got lost while looking for said restroom.
Build:
If you remember the earlier profile of his brother...
Being a child, Alphred has a short and slim build. He's only slightly taller than his brother, though he's one year older than Matthew. He wishes he could be more muscular so he could be like one of those bodyguards that they often see accompanying high class nobles. That way, he could defend both of them better and make up for his height.
Sadly he hasn't had any luck in the bodybuilding department, seeing that there are no weights in the orphanage.
Then again, he'd probably wouldn't bother again after trying his hand at one.
Sadly he hasn't had any luck in the bodybuilding department, seeing that there are no weights in the orphanage.
Then again, he'd probably wouldn't bother again after trying his hand at one.
Matthew has the same slim and short build as his sibling.
So slim and short's what he deals with~
So slim and short's what he deals with~
Distinguishing Features:
Matthew is average in every way. He's covered with filth, bruised and notably tired as a result of living in a crowded orphanage, he has a brother that outshines him and the habit of blending into the background and lastly is short in stature due to his young age and weaker health. But if anything were to separate him completely from his brother, it would be how he composes himself. With a more or less dignified way of portraying himself, Matt is a lot more formal than his sibling. Although he's not very outwardly confident, he still has that air of someone with tact and manners.
Which is strange considering that he's lived in an orphanage for majority of his life.
Unlike his brother who can look straight people in the eye, Matt is more wary of forging eye contact for a long period of time. Eventually, his gaze will drop to the ground or to the feet of the person he's speaking to.
Often times, his head is lowered and his back stiff in contrast to his more lax and direct sibling.
The latter has a habit of slouching but looking straight at the face of the person he's speaking with.
Which is strange considering that he's lived in an orphanage for majority of his life.
Unlike his brother who can look straight people in the eye, Matt is more wary of forging eye contact for a long period of time. Eventually, his gaze will drop to the ground or to the feet of the person he's speaking to.
Often times, his head is lowered and his back stiff in contrast to his more lax and direct sibling.
The latter has a habit of slouching but looking straight at the face of the person he's speaking with.
Typical Dress:
Matthew is commonly seen wearing an oversized tan-colored coat made of fur unlike his brother's leather bomber jacket. The coat is a lot less worn out than Al's jacket and has still retained the same colour as when he found it. Underneath that, he wears a blue button-down shirt with long sleeves and a black vest.
The fur is still soft to touch and spared from holes and tears. Since he's not as rough, Matthew never has to worry about it breaking underneath the strain of 'adventure'. He pretty much takes care of his things as if they were the last and only thing that he had left ( and in a way they are). Unlike Al, he prefers not to push the limit of their lifespans. Afterall, it wouldn't do to have no coat to wear on a cold, winter day. One could get frostbite or hypothermia or....or....
Oh, if only Al would listen more. A few more instances of carelessness like that and the boy would end up blue all over.... And not just from the bruises.
Matthew has a noticeably more dignified air than his brother even without intending to. Because he's a lot more behaved and kempt, he can more easily pass of as someone of noble heritage. His quiet demeanor also makes him seem more princely than his brother's ruffian-like attitude. Still, the two go hand in hand. Both brothers keep the other in line and prevent each other from going too much overboard. It is just as likely that you'll like both equally as it is that you may prefer one over the other.]
The fur is still soft to touch and spared from holes and tears. Since he's not as rough, Matthew never has to worry about it breaking underneath the strain of 'adventure'. He pretty much takes care of his things as if they were the last and only thing that he had left ( and in a way they are). Unlike Al, he prefers not to push the limit of their lifespans. Afterall, it wouldn't do to have no coat to wear on a cold, winter day. One could get frostbite or hypothermia or....or....
Oh, if only Al would listen more. A few more instances of carelessness like that and the boy would end up blue all over.... And not just from the bruises.
Matthew has a noticeably more dignified air than his brother even without intending to. Because he's a lot more behaved and kempt, he can more easily pass of as someone of noble heritage. His quiet demeanor also makes him seem more princely than his brother's ruffian-like attitude. Still, the two go hand in hand. Both brothers keep the other in line and prevent each other from going too much overboard. It is just as likely that you'll like both equally as it is that you may prefer one over the other.]
Orientation:
W-wha...? You're asking where I sway? What do you mean...?
I-Incest?
N-no! I don't love my brother! I-I mean I do but not... like that kind of love. What even gave you that idea....? And relationships....
Err.... I-I don't think that's something I should be thinking of yet. At the moment, I have to focus on being able to survive along with my brother. S-so, we don't really have time to make stuff like that. And if I get distracted, I won't.... really be able to do much.....
An-and besides.... Marriage is a big thing! Y-you have to be really ready and prepared. If you're not, you'll let your family down.... And I know that he'll probably tease me again about it..... Hmmm....
I-Incest?
N-no! I don't love my brother! I-I mean I do but not... like that kind of love. What even gave you that idea....? And relationships....
Err.... I-I don't think that's something I should be thinking of yet. At the moment, I have to focus on being able to survive along with my brother. S-so, we don't really have time to make stuff like that. And if I get distracted, I won't.... really be able to do much.....
An-and besides.... Marriage is a big thing! Y-you have to be really ready and prepared. If you're not, you'll let your family down.... And I know that he'll probably tease me again about it..... Hmmm....
Character Face claim: Matthew Williams/Canada from Axis Powers! Hetalia
Other Notes:---
HISTORICAL FACTS
Birthplace: (Which sector was your character born in? Are they foreign?)
Foreign, you ask?
Uhhhh.... I don't know any other places except for this one. B-but you say that.....there's more to the world than this?
... I...doubt it...
And even if there is, it's probably only for... more well-off people.
Oh... I never explained our situation.... S-sorry....
Well... Al and I don't know where we came from. We don't know our birthplace, real 'birthdays', parents, grandparents... W-we don't know anything at all! From what I remember, we've almost always been completely blind! ....
Errrr.... Figuratively of course.
We got here by.....
Ummm.... I'd prefer not to talk about it....
A-All I can say is, we got here through special (errr....) 'conditions'.
On that night, we should have been doomed to freeze and starve all out on our own.
But we....we didn't.
Al said it was luck playing on our side...... I don't believe him though...... If luck were really on our side, we wouldn't be stuck in an orphanage whilst struggling to stay alive....right? We would be happy with proper homes.... and clothes and..... We wouldn't have been abandoned.....
And.... I wouldn't have to be so scared all the time.....
It had to be something or someone that wanted us to continue living, but I can't fa-fathom why.... Whatever it was, it should have known that we couldn't and never c-can give it anything in return....
O- Our debt can never be repaid....
Though sometimes.... I wish it hadn't gone through th-the trouble.
Our misery could have ended right there......
A-Ah.....And if there's any other place than this, I don't.... think we're meant for it. It's either it's worse ( A-And I doubt our situation can get worse) or better (A-and we're not....worthy enough.) E-either way.... The central sector is our home now... We were raised and....are going to die here......
Uhhhh.... I don't know any other places except for this one. B-but you say that.....there's more to the world than this?
... I...doubt it...
And even if there is, it's probably only for... more well-off people.
Oh... I never explained our situation.... S-sorry....
Well... Al and I don't know where we came from. We don't know our birthplace, real 'birthdays', parents, grandparents... W-we don't know anything at all! From what I remember, we've almost always been completely blind! ....
Errrr.... Figuratively of course.
We got here by.....
Ummm.... I'd prefer not to talk about it....
A-All I can say is, we got here through special (errr....) 'conditions'.
On that night, we should have been doomed to freeze and starve all out on our own.
But we....we didn't.
Al said it was luck playing on our side...... I don't believe him though...... If luck were really on our side, we wouldn't be stuck in an orphanage whilst struggling to stay alive....right? We would be happy with proper homes.... and clothes and..... We wouldn't have been abandoned.....
And.... I wouldn't have to be so scared all the time.....
It had to be something or someone that wanted us to continue living, but I can't fa-fathom why.... Whatever it was, it should have known that we couldn't and never c-can give it anything in return....
O- Our debt can never be repaid....
Though sometimes.... I wish it hadn't gone through th-the trouble.
Our misery could have ended right there......
A-Ah.....And if there's any other place than this, I don't.... think we're meant for it. It's either it's worse ( A-And I doubt our situation can get worse) or better (A-and we're not....worthy enough.) E-either way.... The central sector is our home now... We were raised and....are going to die here......
Exposition corner:
Neither of the brothers know this but, they used to have a wonderful home as the heirs to Silverhollow with all the food, clothes and toys they could wish for.
Too bad daddy and mommy had to have a....fallout.
Too bad daddy and mommy had to have a....fallout.
Parents: Who are your character’s parents? Are they alive ,dead, distant?
.... We don't know.
They could be alive, distant, dead or non-existent...... but the answer will always remain the same.
We don't know; we probably never will know.
As usual, we don't know anything.
They could be alive, distant, dead or non-existent...... but the answer will always remain the same.
We don't know; we probably never will know.
As usual, we don't know anything.
Exposition corner
Now to continue from where we left off.
Their parents used to love each other very, very, very much.
Or at least, that's what the young boys had thought.
And why shouldn't they have thought that? That's what parents do, yeah? They're supposed to love each other.
But little did they know that things weren't as smooth sailing as they had been lead to believe.
(Suspenseful, right?)
Their mommy, Arriana Silverhollow, hate-hate-hated daddy and for unknown reasons made him really, really sick. He was so sickly that he could hardly talk or breathe!
Isn't that coolscary?
But being little kids, Matt and his brother didn't understand anything that was going on. What a twist, isn't it? And before they knew it, daddy went to sleep. Forever.
Mommy should have been really sad!
But she wasn't.
Instead, she seemed happy.
Some people say that she would have danced on top of his grave if she could. But then again, rumors like that always get out of hand.
Why would mommy be happy to see someone dead?
It was probably her way of coping.
So things carried on in the same way for a while. At least, they should have.
Next thing they knew ( or in this case, didn't know), the brothers were hurtling in a carriage towards their demise.
And on the same day, it was proclaimed that the two children were killed.
Mommy should have been really sad.
But she wasn't.
Their parents used to love each other very, very, very much.
Or at least, that's what the young boys had thought.
And why shouldn't they have thought that? That's what parents do, yeah? They're supposed to love each other.
But little did they know that things weren't as smooth sailing as they had been lead to believe.
(Suspenseful, right?)
Their mommy, Arriana Silverhollow, hate-hate-hated daddy and for unknown reasons made him really, really sick. He was so sickly that he could hardly talk or breathe!
Isn't that coolscary?
But being little kids, Matt and his brother didn't understand anything that was going on. What a twist, isn't it? And before they knew it, daddy went to sleep. Forever.
Mommy should have been really sad!
But she wasn't.
Instead, she seemed happy.
Some people say that she would have danced on top of his grave if she could. But then again, rumors like that always get out of hand.
Why would mommy be happy to see someone dead?
It was probably her way of coping.
So things carried on in the same way for a while. At least, they should have.
Next thing they knew ( or in this case, didn't know), the brothers were hurtling in a carriage towards their demise.
And on the same day, it was proclaimed that the two children were killed.
Mommy should have been really sad.
But she wasn't.
Siblings: Does Your character have any siblings?
.... Y-Yes.
I do.
Most people actually know him before they know me... I'm just the person they greet to be polite. A-and.... they always say his mine before mine. 'Al and Matt', ' Alphred and Matthew'. Ne-Never 'Matthew and Al'...
Th-They always ask where Al is and never how I am.... The conversation always revolves around him.
"Al did this; Al did that".
"Al got in trouble again."
"Al's looking for you."
.... I wish they'd look at me for once....
Sorry....
Exposition corner:
Oh, Matthew.
Seriously, this kid needs a break.
Due to his brother's vibrant and excitable attitude, it's easy for the more quiet and timid Matthew to be overshadowed. And from what we've seen, he doesn't like it.
(Great! Another thing to add to his list of passive-aggressive reasons/causes.)
But on a more serious note, this little dilemma is real problem that the boy tends to face. Since he has a difficulty speaking up, he ends up merely storing all those negative emotions until he reaches his breaking point. Sure, he'll give hints...but it's Alphred, the master of ignoring the atmosphere, we're talking about. That child could never take a hint if it thumped him on the back of the head!
So as a result, Matt tends to become even more exasperated.
He can't say it that bluntly though...
No.
People will think badly of him.
But how will that method keep working out for the boy?
How long before he explodes from the mass amount of grudges?
It's gonna be a bumpy road, folks! So we've gotta watch out!
Seriously, this kid needs a break.
Due to his brother's vibrant and excitable attitude, it's easy for the more quiet and timid Matthew to be overshadowed. And from what we've seen, he doesn't like it.
(Great! Another thing to add to his list of passive-aggressive reasons/causes.)
But on a more serious note, this little dilemma is real problem that the boy tends to face. Since he has a difficulty speaking up, he ends up merely storing all those negative emotions until he reaches his breaking point. Sure, he'll give hints...but it's Alphred, the master of ignoring the atmosphere, we're talking about. That child could never take a hint if it thumped him on the back of the head!
So as a result, Matt tends to become even more exasperated.
He can't say it that bluntly though...
No.
People will think badly of him.
But how will that method keep working out for the boy?
How long before he explodes from the mass amount of grudges?
It's gonna be a bumpy road, folks! So we've gotta watch out!
Education:
Quote:
N-No...or at least not really.
There's...not many people who will agree to pay for your tuition.
But I do have a basic understanding of how to read and write from long ago. I don't know who taught it to me though.... Si-Since I don't do much in my free time, I was able to develop it with some of the books scattered around. Kids normally just ignore, tear up and scribble on it anyway... so I look for the clean ones and hide them under my bed. Then when no one is looking, I browse through a few pages, chapters or as much as I can skim through.
I-It's nice because....it's like it transports you to your own personal world. Where people appreciate and... see you.
Al teases me a lot for using 'big words'.... But they're not that big....
I learn them from reading and try to use them when I can.
A-Actually.... reading is one of the few things I'm fairly confident about.... I know I can do it and am good at it. Though I still feel embarrassed when people call it a....girly....hobby, at least I know it has a use..... Right?
But if I ever have the chance, I'd like to study and learn more.
Though I doubt that will ever happen.....
History:
Two children lay crying in a bed,
extending their arms out towards their mother.....
Those children grew older and stronger as time passed on.
But one child was weaker than the other.
That was fine though.
They were brothers.
That's all that mattered.
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The most that Matt knows about his own history is that he and his brother were found next to a tattered carriage before they were taken to St. Bartelby's Home for Boys & Girls. Sometimes he has strange dreams that could almost seem like memories, though....
extending their arms out towards their mother.....
Those children grew older and stronger as time passed on.
But one child was weaker than the other.
That was fine though.
They were brothers.
That's all that mattered.
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The most that Matt knows about his own history is that he and his brother were found next to a tattered carriage before they were taken to St. Bartelby's Home for Boys & Girls. Sometimes he has strange dreams that could almost seem like memories, though....
GOSSIP
Known Facts:
(post somethings that everyone knows is true about your character)
Matthew is the younger brother of Alphred Jones, a young orphan in St. Bartleby's Home for Boy and Girls.
- He and his brother were said to have been victims in a carriage crash one harsh evening. The horse has already escaped from it reigns leaving nothing but splintered wood lay in sight. There was quite a lot of turmoil that night, giving the people a well-needed boost to spice up their redundant, routine lives. According to the record published to the public, no survivors were found.
But on the same night, two unconscious children were brought to the orphanage by a strange unknown man. When awoken, they had no memory of where they were or where they had come from. All they knew were their names and that something very, very bad had happened earlier ago.
- Matthew is a smart little cookie and wanted to be a detective when he grew up. He didn't like the flashiness of his brother's aspiration and preferred something more subtle.]
[/i][/center]- He and his brother were said to have been victims in a carriage crash one harsh evening. The horse has already escaped from it reigns leaving nothing but splintered wood lay in sight. There was quite a lot of turmoil that night, giving the people a well-needed boost to spice up their redundant, routine lives. According to the record published to the public, no survivors were found.
But on the same night, two unconscious children were brought to the orphanage by a strange unknown man. When awoken, they had no memory of where they were or where they had come from. All they knew were their names and that something very, very bad had happened earlier ago.
- Matthew is a smart little cookie and wanted to be a detective when he grew up. He didn't like the flashiness of his brother's aspiration and preferred something more subtle.]
Rumors:
(what are some rumors going on about your character? Can be true or false)
Quote:
-The statement below is true.
-The statement above is false.
"What does this have to do with me?... Sorry."
-He partook in vigilante activities
-He's part of the mafia.
" Al made those up, didn't he? No, I'm not in the mafia. And if anyone were to be a vigilante, it would be Al with his obsession for 'justice' and 'honor without listening to leaders.'
-He exchanged identities with his brother so Matthew is actually Alphred dressed up as Matthew with the skills of the Alphred who actually does not want to be a hero while Alphred is actually Matthew dressed up as Alphred who actually wants to be a hero. So if Matthew wants to be a hero while Alphred does not, who is Matthew?
"....... Ok then."
-He actually knows how to cook.
" A-Actually, I do. I...watched them cook in the kitchen a lot during my spare time , so I have some skills at making food. I-It's nothing special though but, it's at least edible..... O-one of these days, I'll try cooking something for the others in the orphanage...!
Errr... anonymously, of course.
They might not like it......"
-He is one of the lost Silverhollow siblings.
"..... Right.... If I was one of the heirs, wouldn't mommy have wanted Al and I? I highly doubt that's true.... Sorry. "
Secrets:
(What is something only your character knows?)
[His bear's name]
Only Matt knows the true name he gave to his stuffed bear. He calls it "Wedee", a name he recalls distantly...
Only Matt knows the true name he gave to his stuffed bear. He calls it "Wedee", a name he recalls distantly...
Quote:
[[* How this plays out;
Listen up, because it's kind of technical (Not really.)
The shadow isn't like Oscar's other voice. It's not really a voice, per se.
When Matthew tried to harm Alphred on that night, it was because of the pure, concentrated envy that was building up within him. Not a voice in his head telling him to do it. All of it was on his own free-will. He was so tired of everything biting down on him, of being forgotten. So, he put that wrath into action.
As the chance grew closer and closer, the boy became more aware of what he was doing and his conscience began reacting. After realizing the full situation though, he was snapped back into his sense. On that night, Alphred had a a close call.
Of course, the boy doesn't know that at all. He thinks that the treasure rumour was just a fun game.
Matthew knows it wasn't.
Out of the sheer terror and disgust, he created a dissociation between
himself and the 'Matthew' on that day. Something similar to an alternate persona. The Matthew he was was a pure and untainted child. That Matthew could never, ever do anything wrong. After all, he was a kid. Kids don't think about killing or murdering or anything like that! The other Matthew is the one who did it....
The other Matthew is the one who was tainted and bloodthirsty! That Matthew was like Alphred in the way that he was strong and confident ! That Matthew could have been who he would have been if 'he' had become Al and succeeded at his goals. But that Matthew was also... better than his Al. That Matthew was also cunning, smart and patient. He didn't have any of the faults that he hated in Al... only the good stuff....
He didn't have any of the faults he hated in himself either.
It was perfect.
The perfect Matthew.
The perfect Al.
(Or at least, it should have been. )
Instead, it became a remorseful, resentful and angry little reminder of his faults.
But that Matthew... That Matthew was naughty! He was a bad child, one who shouldn't be listened to. Right? So anyway, everything that shadow said was a lie!
As his mind began to work in overdrive, the pure trauma of the earlier event hit him. He was a kid... who tried to kill someone. His brother of all people!
Haha... but that wasn't him....
That was the other... Matthew. That was his shadow.
Eventually, the poor child couldn't take it and began to hallucinate. From a simple dissociation, that shadow became a 'real' person. It became someone he could see, touch and smell. But, it only came when he was all alone on nights like the one the 'incident' had happened. Like a shadow.... it was always there..... Whether when he was about to drift off in bed after thinking or in the bathroom ( which gave some pretty awkward moments and lines)
But no one else could see it! His explanation? The real Matthew was never seen. And only when the real Matthew became perfect and blocked out his shadow thus defeating it, would he finally leave him alone. At least, that's what Matthew thought.
Until then, the shadow was only visible to him.
He would have no other escape.
Even in dreams, he could track him down.
Quote:
* other notes;
-His 'Shadow' can switch between the appearances of Al and himself.
But as it gets worse, there can be both of them at the same time.
- Matthew can respond to it. Actually, no. Mathew has to respond to it. But there are times he can ignore it. The shadow cannot control what Matthew wants or has to say. It cannot make him do anything either. It can only garner reactions.
- In dreams, the shadow is its strongest. When he's hallucinating while awake, it's just a nuisance. A freaky nuisance, but one nonetheless.
- It cannot show in the morning.
- It cannot show when there are other people nearby or in the room. But it can pop up in his dreams, regardless of the people there.
- It can show when he thinks he's alone.
- And I repeat, it cannot control what Matthew has to say. Its main purpose is telling him how he fails, what he fails at, and giving hints of what his problem is.
- Its relation to the carriage? The envy grew worse after Al became more obsessive about being a hero. To quote what Matt's shadow would say about that "He's always been the hero; you've always been nothing. He shouldn't even try, because he's working to upstage nothing. "
Its power stems from and lives on Matt's jealousy and refusal to accept that night. It also consists of:
* How he never accepted himself
* He refused to acknowledge that he and the shadow are one in the same
* His refusal to accept he can never be Al
* His refusal to accept the fact that his brother isn't even as perfect as he believes.
* His belief that EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHER is talking about him behind his back.
It can have more reasons and causes as the story unfolds, but that's the main points as of the moment. Feel free to add~
+ PS. Thank Jocelyn for this. She gave me a similar idea ( schizophrenia) to do/suggest if someone ever took Matt xD I just added something to separate it from our favourite Hybrid-aroused Goldsbloom heir because his amazingness cannot be reproduced. c;
PERSONALITY
Age:
Quote:
N-nine....
Sorry.... no pun or action to make it cute.....
Likes: (at least 4)
Quote:
W-What are the things I like? Well, ummmm.... I don't really know. I've never really been asked that. Well, I guess I like it when....
[ When things go correctly ]
Why does everything go wrong? Why are bad things always happening? Being less optimistic than a certain airheaded hero, the boy always tends to question himself and the things around him. When you live in a world filled with one misfortune after another, it gets hard to be able to stay.... hopeful.... about anything. After all, how much more can they take?
How long before they all break down?
But, Matt always finds a certain comfort when his suspicions and thoughts turn out to be correct. Not only does it not paint him in a bad light (though that is important to the kid) it also means they have another day to continue living. Being the closest thing he can be too hopeful, the child is able to relax from his constant worrying and thinking. Of course, that feeling only lasts for a while. But one must admit that it's nice to be able to calm down once in a while.
[Those moments of silence with his sibling ]
As problematic as he tends to be with Al, one cannot deny that the two hold at least a slight affection for one another. Being alone with his brother when neither are doing anything dangerous or difficult is one of the moments that young Matthew enjoys experiencing, even if Matthew does feel envy for the older of the pair. The reason he enjoys those moments of silence between them are, because it makes him feel as if nothing bad ever happened. In that little moment, the carriage never crashed. And.... He never lost his real brother.
He wasn't just stuck with a fake, carbon copy of a hero.
If that moment had never happened, maybe Matthew could have grown out off his shell.
Al would have been less frantic over him and allowed him to do things on his own.
He wouldn't have to unintentionally or intentionally overshadow his brother...
Matt could have made his own unique identity.
During times of rest, the two are able to feel like real siblings.. as if they have something waiting for them back home.
As if.... their lives really had a purpose.
[His bear]
Matthew doesn't know where it came from or who gave it to him. But all he knows is, it reminds him of the warmth you'd find in a home. Whenever he looks at it, he instantly thinks of a name. But its distant, and hard to recall. He believes that name is "Wedee", or something to that affect.
Besides, the bear was there when Al was a real brother to him....
It had seen the real Al, the Al that he cared for and wanted to be in a family with.
Why does everything go wrong? Why are bad things always happening? Being less optimistic than a certain airheaded hero, the boy always tends to question himself and the things around him. When you live in a world filled with one misfortune after another, it gets hard to be able to stay.... hopeful.... about anything. After all, how much more can they take?
How long before they all break down?
But, Matt always finds a certain comfort when his suspicions and thoughts turn out to be correct. Not only does it not paint him in a bad light (though that is important to the kid) it also means they have another day to continue living. Being the closest thing he can be too hopeful, the child is able to relax from his constant worrying and thinking. Of course, that feeling only lasts for a while. But one must admit that it's nice to be able to calm down once in a while.
[Those moments of silence with his sibling ]
As problematic as he tends to be with Al, one cannot deny that the two hold at least a slight affection for one another. Being alone with his brother when neither are doing anything dangerous or difficult is one of the moments that young Matthew enjoys experiencing, even if Matthew does feel envy for the older of the pair. The reason he enjoys those moments of silence between them are, because it makes him feel as if nothing bad ever happened. In that little moment, the carriage never crashed. And.... He never lost his real brother.
He wasn't just stuck with a fake, carbon copy of a hero.
If that moment had never happened, maybe Matthew could have grown out off his shell.
Al would have been less frantic over him and allowed him to do things on his own.
He wouldn't have to unintentionally or intentionally overshadow his brother...
Matt could have made his own unique identity.
During times of rest, the two are able to feel like real siblings.. as if they have something waiting for them back home.
As if.... their lives really had a purpose.
[His bear]
Matthew doesn't know where it came from or who gave it to him. But all he knows is, it reminds him of the warmth you'd find in a home. Whenever he looks at it, he instantly thinks of a name. But its distant, and hard to recall. He believes that name is "Wedee", or something to that affect.
Besides, the bear was there when Al was a real brother to him....
It had seen the real Al, the Al that he cared for and wanted to be in a family with.
Dislikes:
[Heights]
How he hates heights. The dizzying feeling you get in your stomach, the tension that seems to push down on you when you're in the air... The sensation you get from being so close to the edge.
Ugh... The only thing worse would be looking down.
Yeah...that would just seal the cake. Imagine looking down into the spiraling abyss and seeing everything below look tiny and minuscule. Or worse yet, imagine being on the verge of falling. With every step your legs get weaker and weaker until you feel like you're about to tip over and then....then.... Ughhhh. Then as you struggle to make it up, your head feels lighter and lighter until you feel that you're going to black out and......
[Being overly coddled]
W-Why can't he try things on his own? He appreciates the concern-- Really, he does. But enough is enough! And things are getting way too out of control!
[Compliments]
A-and.... What do others say about it? Do they laugh at him? Are they just trying to be nice or polite by complimenting them? Oh...! That's another thing he hates! He can never tell if those sugar-coated, honey-dripping words are merely that.
False words.
Ways to ease the pain.
[Heroes]
What's the point?
How he hates heights. The dizzying feeling you get in your stomach, the tension that seems to push down on you when you're in the air... The sensation you get from being so close to the edge.
Ugh... The only thing worse would be looking down.
Yeah...that would just seal the cake. Imagine looking down into the spiraling abyss and seeing everything below look tiny and minuscule. Or worse yet, imagine being on the verge of falling. With every step your legs get weaker and weaker until you feel like you're about to tip over and then....then.... Ughhhh. Then as you struggle to make it up, your head feels lighter and lighter until you feel that you're going to black out and......
[Being overly coddled]
W-Why can't he try things on his own? He appreciates the concern-- Really, he does. But enough is enough! And things are getting way too out of control!
[Compliments]
A-and.... What do others say about it? Do they laugh at him? Are they just trying to be nice or polite by complimenting them? Oh...! That's another thing he hates! He can never tell if those sugar-coated, honey-dripping words are merely that.
False words.
Ways to ease the pain.
[Heroes]
What's the point?
Aspirations:
Being extremely blunt, all the boy wants to do is survive.
Maybe he can be a detective when he grows up, maybe he can get a better education, maybe he can even finish that book he's been lagging behind on in reading, but those are all just 'after notes' to the child.
After all, how can he accomplish any of them if he's dead?
Maybe he can be a detective when he grows up, maybe he can get a better education, maybe he can even finish that book he's been lagging behind on in reading, but those are all just 'after notes' to the child.
After all, how can he accomplish any of them if he's dead?
Fears:
[Shadow]
Above all, the very thing he hates the most--so much that he wants to dissociate himself from the darker feelings in himself and of that night...thus the Shadow was born. It still haunts him, and is still his worst enemy.
[Being Inferior]
He hates to feel small (which is a 24/7 thing for him of late, but mostly because of his outlook on life). This results in his withdrawn behavior--in order to avoid interaction with others as much as possible to avoid feeling less than others.
Above all, the very thing he hates the most--so much that he wants to dissociate himself from the darker feelings in himself and of that night...thus the Shadow was born. It still haunts him, and is still his worst enemy.
[Being Inferior]
He hates to feel small (which is a 24/7 thing for him of late, but mostly because of his outlook on life). This results in his withdrawn behavior--in order to avoid interaction with others as much as possible to avoid feeling less than others.
Weaknesses:
[Tendency to be a subtle Smartalec/Know-it-all]
Matthew isn't stupid, and he knows it. In fact, he's probably smarter than his older brother is! Not that he'll ever say that out loud though. After all, he is 'passive aggressive' ( and he might be wrong.... No.... He can't afford to be wrong...especially in an important occasion)
And if he already knows it, why say anything? Actions speak a lot louder than words anyway.
But as a result? He can be unconsciously cocky about the little facts that he knows for sure.... even if sometimes it's better to just do something than brag. He doesn't mean to offend, but his remarks can get rather rude when he doesn't watch his mouth.
Because really, he's pretty advanced at thinking with what they've gone through.... How couldn't he be when all he had at his disposal was his mind? Some people his age and near it just don't understand how stupid their mistakes can be! It's all been done before.... Right? And the solution is right there! Anyone could see it!
He'll go off in his little world, thinking ' I told you so! I knew I was right' and smile smugly to himself while the situation outside gets worse and worse without him realizing. And by the time he notices something go wrong? Yep, it'll be too late to change anything. This makes any advice that he gave previously completely useless or null.
For someone so outwardly timid, he can honestly be an arrogant, self-centered, self-loving arse inwardly at times. Especially when the person he's trying to out-prove is a person he got into an argument with earlier.
Though part of being a know-it-all is the fear to be wrong. If what he says isn't correct or offensive, what will other people say about him? What will they think? Will they hold it against him? Will they think all the things he said is wrong? This leads to his next major flaw.
[Extremely conscious of how people look at him ]
- Most seen when he's wrong or mistaken.
- Goes hand in hand with the first.
He can't say anything that might be wrong or offensive.... They might hold it against him.
He can't be wrong in his advice and solutions...... They might think he's more incapable than what's already believed. Than what he believes.
He can't remain in his brother's shadow.... People will think he's pathetic.
But he can't upstage his brother.... Al will think he's pathetic.
He can't speak out... He might be wrong.
But people find it annoying how he let's his brother handle everything for him.
Matthew is extremely conscious of how people look at him, to the point of being the equivalent to Alphred's hero complex. He worries that people talk and laugh about him behind his back. Al says that they're laughing with him, but what does he of all people know? Al's always been the clown that basks in the spotlight. He's the one who makes a name for being 'adorably wrong'.
But Matthew's not like that, no. He can't be wrong.... People will look down on him if he is. It's not cute if he makes mistakes.... But how can he stop that from happening? Better to keep to himself and look like the meeker one of the two. He'll never be wrong then! People can keep laughing at Al, and he won't have to suffer from the shame of being wrong.
Besides, Al likes it. He doesn't mind doing things for people....
It's a fool-proof plan, but one Matt isn't proud of. While he hates being wrong, he genuinely cares for his brother as well..... So what to do? What can he do....?
[Dependent]
He's chuck full of brilliant ideas!
Too bad he can't actually pull off any of them on his own. But that's what Al's role in their duo is. Matt thinks; Al does. Matthew doesn't mind though, he's fine with that setup. They both get to do with what they specialize in.
But what happens when Al disagrees? Well, Matt is left optionless. He doesn't have the strength or stubborn and naive bravery to rush into any situation on his own! He can't try to pull off unimaginable feats without 'consulting' logic. What are the chances that he can get them food? Well, that'll depend if he can find someone to sell them some. But then what if they don't have enough money?
So many possible flaws..... How can he surpass any of them? And what will happen if he can't. At that moment, Matt will freeze up and stop. Is he already wrong? Has he messed up again? No!No!No! He can't have messed up!
By then, Al will have taken over and fixed everything for him.... just like he always does...... After all, Al's so dependable...... He can't be wrong....
(Is that a miscalculation.....?)
[Almost unnervingly quiet]
With his habit of keeping to himself, he can seem cold in comparison to his brother. Ah...Al. Always smiling, grinning and laughing so genuinely....to the point that his innocence hurts.
But Matthew's not like that. He's more quiet and timid, only talking when he needs to and when it can help. He just watches everything go by; he waits for things to show opportunities and chances. You see unlike loud and brash Alphred, Matthew's more patient. Yes, Matthew can wait for things to look up. As a result, he doesn't speak much. He hardly forms relationships with other people, because he's never been the type to be able to continue conversations. But he can't show people that... They'll laugh at him. So, he remains silent and almost frigid. When people invite him to play, he'll smile sadly and refuse. Some say he's never even stepped out of the orphanage since the 'incident'!
You know, some people find it unnerving. But Al doesn't think anything's wrong! Matt is his brother! And Matt needs him!
...Still, people keep asking questions. How is someone so young already so mature and calculating? Where's that childish innocence seen so much in his sibling?
Well Al doesn't have any traumatizing, horrifying nightmares that can make one wish to lock himself in a room and cry to sleep only to to be haunted again by the same imagery, now does he?
(In truth, Matt wants to talk. But no one ever listens.....
No one ever remembers.....)
Matthew isn't stupid, and he knows it. In fact, he's probably smarter than his older brother is! Not that he'll ever say that out loud though. After all, he is 'passive aggressive' ( and he might be wrong.... No.... He can't afford to be wrong...especially in an important occasion)
And if he already knows it, why say anything? Actions speak a lot louder than words anyway.
But as a result? He can be unconsciously cocky about the little facts that he knows for sure.... even if sometimes it's better to just do something than brag. He doesn't mean to offend, but his remarks can get rather rude when he doesn't watch his mouth.
Because really, he's pretty advanced at thinking with what they've gone through.... How couldn't he be when all he had at his disposal was his mind? Some people his age and near it just don't understand how stupid their mistakes can be! It's all been done before.... Right? And the solution is right there! Anyone could see it!
He'll go off in his little world, thinking ' I told you so! I knew I was right' and smile smugly to himself while the situation outside gets worse and worse without him realizing. And by the time he notices something go wrong? Yep, it'll be too late to change anything. This makes any advice that he gave previously completely useless or null.
For someone so outwardly timid, he can honestly be an arrogant, self-centered, self-loving arse inwardly at times. Especially when the person he's trying to out-prove is a person he got into an argument with earlier.
Though part of being a know-it-all is the fear to be wrong. If what he says isn't correct or offensive, what will other people say about him? What will they think? Will they hold it against him? Will they think all the things he said is wrong? This leads to his next major flaw.
[Extremely conscious of how people look at him ]
- Most seen when he's wrong or mistaken.
- Goes hand in hand with the first.
He can't say anything that might be wrong or offensive.... They might hold it against him.
He can't be wrong in his advice and solutions...... They might think he's more incapable than what's already believed. Than what he believes.
He can't remain in his brother's shadow.... People will think he's pathetic.
But he can't upstage his brother.... Al will think he's pathetic.
He can't speak out... He might be wrong.
But people find it annoying how he let's his brother handle everything for him.
Matthew is extremely conscious of how people look at him, to the point of being the equivalent to Alphred's hero complex. He worries that people talk and laugh about him behind his back. Al says that they're laughing with him, but what does he of all people know? Al's always been the clown that basks in the spotlight. He's the one who makes a name for being 'adorably wrong'.
But Matthew's not like that, no. He can't be wrong.... People will look down on him if he is. It's not cute if he makes mistakes.... But how can he stop that from happening? Better to keep to himself and look like the meeker one of the two. He'll never be wrong then! People can keep laughing at Al, and he won't have to suffer from the shame of being wrong.
Besides, Al likes it. He doesn't mind doing things for people....
It's a fool-proof plan, but one Matt isn't proud of. While he hates being wrong, he genuinely cares for his brother as well..... So what to do? What can he do....?
[Dependent]
He's chuck full of brilliant ideas!
Too bad he can't actually pull off any of them on his own. But that's what Al's role in their duo is. Matt thinks; Al does. Matthew doesn't mind though, he's fine with that setup. They both get to do with what they specialize in.
But what happens when Al disagrees? Well, Matt is left optionless. He doesn't have the strength or stubborn and naive bravery to rush into any situation on his own! He can't try to pull off unimaginable feats without 'consulting' logic. What are the chances that he can get them food? Well, that'll depend if he can find someone to sell them some. But then what if they don't have enough money?
So many possible flaws..... How can he surpass any of them? And what will happen if he can't. At that moment, Matt will freeze up and stop. Is he already wrong? Has he messed up again? No!No!No! He can't have messed up!
By then, Al will have taken over and fixed everything for him.... just like he always does...... After all, Al's so dependable...... He can't be wrong....
(Is that a miscalculation.....?)
[Almost unnervingly quiet]
With his habit of keeping to himself, he can seem cold in comparison to his brother. Ah...Al. Always smiling, grinning and laughing so genuinely....to the point that his innocence hurts.
But Matthew's not like that. He's more quiet and timid, only talking when he needs to and when it can help. He just watches everything go by; he waits for things to show opportunities and chances. You see unlike loud and brash Alphred, Matthew's more patient. Yes, Matthew can wait for things to look up. As a result, he doesn't speak much. He hardly forms relationships with other people, because he's never been the type to be able to continue conversations. But he can't show people that... They'll laugh at him. So, he remains silent and almost frigid. When people invite him to play, he'll smile sadly and refuse. Some say he's never even stepped out of the orphanage since the 'incident'!
You know, some people find it unnerving. But Al doesn't think anything's wrong! Matt is his brother! And Matt needs him!
...Still, people keep asking questions. How is someone so young already so mature and calculating? Where's that childish innocence seen so much in his sibling?
Well Al doesn't have any traumatizing, horrifying nightmares that can make one wish to lock himself in a room and cry to sleep only to to be haunted again by the same imagery, now does he?
(In truth, Matt wants to talk. But no one ever listens.....
No one ever remembers.....)
Strengths:
For this portion, a special speaker was asked to answer this question to allow it to be as unbiased as possible.
Quote:
Hey? Are we starting?
Ah! Great~
Hello, an' ya' wanted to ask me a question? Shoot!
Oh? About Matt?
Ok! But just for you guys. I'll be sayin' some pretty private things, so I trust ya' not to blab.
First of all, Matt is... how'd ya' say it? In-te-lli-gent? Yeah! That's the word!
Matt's really smart.
After all, he makes all the plans in our lil' duo.
Without him, we wouldn't be the awesome team that we are!
And he's also really good at speakin' durin' the rare times he does. The only thing is, not many people know it. It's coz' he's always so quiet and timid!
No one ever hears that kid's voice.
Anyway, back to the bein' smart thing. Matt is really smart-- Oh, did I say that already? I said it again though~!
Y'know, I used to envy that about him. Wha-?What's with the looks? A hero gets jealous at times too, ya know~! But whatever.
I was jealous because.....
Errr.....
[The boy whispers the next statement]
He's a lot smarter than me, ya know? I mean, I do all the action but he does all the noggin mashin'. Without him, what plan would I have to work with?
And he's realistic.
I don't always agree with im' but he drives good points. He thinks though his plans before suggestin' them and tries to set a good example to people.
Bit too stiff for my tastes, but that's just me.
And he's a hecka lot more patient than I am, I can tell ya' that.
Lastly, there's a good person in that word-jumbled head of his. Or at least, I think so.
He's stuck with me through everythin' that happened, so I guess he would be.
Nah, scratch that out.
I know he is!
And he's a lot braver than me too! Fake or not, I don't think I could take those dreams and 'shadowy' guys he told me about. Really. How do ya' punch a shadow anyway? Won't you end up hittin' the wall?
Bleh, that doesn't sound cool at all!
So, yeah. That's my opinion on my brother.
He can be.... strange...at times, but he's family. And ya gotta respect their weaknesses and flaws no matter what! After all, they do the same for you.
Now if ya ain' got anymore question, I have a date with a sweet, piece of cake to tend to. See ya later~!
Habits:
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Habits? Ummm.... I'm not aware of much. I can....try to name a few though.
[passive-aggressive]
F-First of all, I have a habit of feel ing really empty on the spot ( especially when I feel aggravated) I-It's not like I don't care though.....On the contrary, I care a lot. It's just that..... Ah....I dunno how to explain it.
Just....Just pretend I didn't mention that.
When I feel angry, I have a hard time expressing it. A-A lot of things rile me up, actually. It's just that I can never really let it show. S-some people say that's a good thing.... though I'm not really sure it is. If I had been in an argument with you earlier, chances are it will show. Why ....would I want to listen to someone who did something to me? Why should I....right? I-It's not that.... I think I'm right..... It's just that I....don't think I have to. I won't tell you what's wrong directly.... you should know that for yourself or find that out on your own... but I will show that I'm angry. A-And you should use those hints to find out on your own!..... Right? Y-yeah...
H-huh....?
Like how?
I-It's done in little ways. For example.... I'd rather just not say anything and be quiet than approach.... Or I'd rather just frown and pout than.... You know...something like punch. While Al reacts to everything, I prefer to keep it to myself.... I-It's better that way.
.... Right?
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[ Stammering, Pausing, and Speech habits ]
O-Oh..... You noticed. I was....hoping you wouldn't really mind that. But, I guess I have to answer since you asked about it.
I have a bit of a....errr....stammering problem. I'm not as good at conversing as my brother, if you may have noticed. While he rambles on and on openly, I prefer to keep track of what I say. I try to think before I talk and that causes me to pause a lot. I-I'm....not always sure about if what I'm saying is correct either so, I also normally ask for confirmation a lot ( right, correct, etc).
Sometimes, I don't even say anything at all because I don't want to make a fool out of myself....
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[Before bed]
Before I go to bed, I make sure there's still one light open and one person awake. I close all the doors, shut the blinds and check the closet for safety measures. But most importantly, I put my bear on the bed first. I tuck it in nice and tight underneath the covers to make sure it won't fall out.
That way if the shadows come back and try to take me, I have something to leave as a memento. Even if I disappear, I'll....be able to leave something behind.
And maybe, people won't forget me anymore.
Overall Personality:
" How do you see yourself?"
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Second best? [ he chuckles, a tinge of resentment in his voice]
I dunno.... I care for my brother a lot and all but.... I-I mean, he's all I really have. So, I couldn't hate him even if he did everything wrong in the world and dragged me with him.
Still, sometimes he's too much. He can't see when other people are mad at him; he ignores the help he's given; he overworks himself, he's selfish; he's an attention hog; he doesn't listen to common sense; I don't think he has common sense; he thinks the world always revolves around him; he takes the blame for EVERYTHING; he's too clingy or he doesn't care at all; he's there too much and tries to control everything or he leaves too often..... He tried to leave me once, you know.... He's too impulsive; he doesn't think at all before he acts; he's too naive; he thinks everything will always be alright; he's too loud and talkative; he always remembers everything wrong I do and teases me for it; he forgets me; he forgets that he's just as human as I am; he's too proud... he thinks he can do anything....
He sneaks out in the middle of the night when he thinks I'm asleep.
And sometimes he cries alone at midnight because he thinks I'll think worse of him if he shows it.
He never tells me anything....
He's hurting himself for my sake, when I never asked him to.
And he lies when he says he's fine. He treats me like I'm blind and stupid....
Alphred....
....
Just....
stop it.....
Stop asking if I need help...Stop promising that you'll save me from everything wrong! How can you do anything for me.... how can you make me happy.... when you can't help yourself first....? If I'm too weak to solve my own problems, then what are you?
I can handle my nightmares on my own.
I always have.
Yes, I'm scared of them. Yes I'm.....not as strong as you. But I'm strong enough! I can take it. What scares me more is what you do to yourself!
How can you be a hero.... if you kill yourself in the process?
I want a brother I can depend on... Not a superhero cutout from a fairy tale or comic.
I want my brother.
....Those are the things I hate about him.... But I can't get myself to loathe him completely for it. In fact, I used to be jealous of him because of those things...
I hated him for the things he had.... for what he was....for what I wanted and didn't have.
I would feel that I wasn't a good enough brother for him; people would look at me with fake disgust and joke " Matthew, you're so lucky to have a brother like Al. What would you do without him?" They'd laugh like they were joking but.... I know they meant it. They all thought that as soon as Al grew older or tired of me, he'd forget about his little brother and leave me to die.
Sometimes, I still expect it to happen.
When he sneaks out, I stay up all night wondering if he's going to come back again the next morning.
Will I find the bed next to mine empty?
All that time, I can't do anything but cry.
Why?
Because he has the freedom to do so; he can leave anytime.
If he left, he would be strong enough to survive on his own.
If I left, I wouldn't last a day. After all, " What would I do without Al? What could I do without Al?"(I want to be like him, I want to be as strong as him, I want people to depend on me like him..... I want to be him.....)
Sorry.
